If I say it's not my problem then whose problem is it?

Volcanic lightning

friction at its second best

Nebula

It amazes me how something so magical and serene can be real not a cgi not a figment of someones imagination.

Out of my mind

I get quite obsessive about things. Not quite what one would want to hear. I hope your an object I can cast aside. But these things these obsessions they take all my time. They infiltrate my mind when I'm thinking when I sleep. They prevent me from living a normal life. People think I'm strange. When I type in my head. I think I'm strange how I like you but I dont even know you. These obsessions these things I dont control them they control me.

I ask

I ask for your smile
Not your hand, not your heart
I ask for your laugh
Not your time, not your money, not your complex body parts.

Abyss

Falling falling
Forever down
Pick me up
Don't push me around

Are my hands cold?

I don't want for my feelings to go
Because then all I am is an empty black hole
If all I am is a naive girl
Why would you want me you deserve the world
Fuck this shit, this stupid little game
I want to live, I don't want to play
I feel so stupid you never gave me a sign
I'm so selfish I never think of your feelings I only consider mine
It just makes me so angry things always go good
Just never for me and not when it should
What I want now I don't know
But in the future "are my hands cold?"

To do list:

Get a job
grow hair
pass exams
find myself
keep running
make more stuff
sew some clothes
draw more picture
stop procrastinating
sell clothes on trademe
cover my roof with lampshades
decide what i want to do at university
get over you like the day gets over the night
run around in the rain in gumboots and a raincoat
buy a bike and a picnic set and go for day trips and picnics
love somebody with my whole heart and feel like I will never love again.

You

You can be whatever you want
You can do whatever you want
You can see whatever you want
You can feel whatever you want

So then why

Am I doing what what society wants
Living a life I don't want
Only seeing what others tell me to see
Feeling how you force me to feel?

Because life isn't what you want it's what you are given. Make the most of what you have it won't be perfect but it's not going to change unless you make it.

Henry David Thoreau

Some quotes from a wise man. I may not understand the true meaning of them but that doesn't matter. I can still appreciate them and doesn't mean I can't interpret them how I wish.

I have learned, that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.

I love to be alone. I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude.

I say beware of all enterprises that require new clothes, and not rather a new wearer of clothes.

I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.

I would rather sit on a pumpkin and have it all to myself, than be crowded on a velvet cushion.